We are starting the process to adopt a baby!!!

I have always wanted to adopt at least one of our children someday. Well, after ttc now without luck, why not start now.

We have made our decision to start our family through adoption. I have contacted all the local agencies, gotten their info and reviewed it all. At first I was feeling discouraged based on a few things like cost, $35-$40,00o, some of the agencies wanted BMI, a health form stating we have average life expectancies (I was worried due to having diabetes), married at least 2 years and one needed proof of infertility. Well, I was discouraged till I got the last packet. It states an average cost of $22,000, wants ht and wt on PE form, but not BMI, can be in a relationship for 2 yrs, health clearance from DR (I asked a sw on the phone about having diabetes, she said that I just need a DR to say I am healthy and managing my diabetes) and I just liked the feel of this agency. So I called for an application and read it over right away when I received it, starting filling it all out and now we just need to both sign everything and notarize some forms, get our PE's and send it all back in. We need to attend 10 evening learning sessions (I believe they are on the 4th Mon of each mos). Then we start the home study process which consists of about 5 interviews (one being in our home as a home review). After our CORI and I think fingerprint stuff comes in and all is reviewed we await approval. Once approved we are then in our "paper pregnancy" and await a match and ultimately placement.

Please, please pray with us that this process goes smoothly and quickly.

I already feel a feeling of relief and excitement. Yes, I am very nervous about it all, but at the same time happy to be able to free myself from all these emotions around ttc and finally give my body and mind a break.

It is in your hands GOD and we believe!

Hoping with all our hearts and praying with all that we are that we will be parents through adoption.

GOD Bless!

4th Clomid cycle finally over

After 60 days there was finally an end to this trying cycle. I started taking soy isoflavones yest. 160 mg a day from cd 3 - cd 7. We'll see what happens.
We also have come to a big decision in our life...........see next post!

Josh is back working in wells/ pumps

He started at a local well co. 3 wks ago. He is loving being back into well work. I am so happy for him. He is beat though. Last Fri. he worked from 6 am to 8:30 pm and made good overtime the other nights too. They have made a few comments about him doing well so that is good. He is a great, dedicated and hard worker.
It has been in the 100's in the sun on Monday and Tues of this wk. with lots of humidity with a heat index of 125 yest. and I think 116 on Mon. It was awful! Today has much less humidity and feels a lot nicer in the high 80's (90 in the sun on the thermometer @ 2:30 pm).

I went and bought a pool on Monday. We have been working on leveling and preparing an area for it the past 2 evenings. Maybe it will get assembled tonight :o) if Joshy gets home at a reasonable time to work on it. It is a metal frame one, 15 x 48. We are getting excited to use it.

Ovulated on cd 48

Geesh! So much for Clomid. I feel like I just threw it out the window this cycle instead of actually taking it. I really felt O strongly around cd 48 and got what looked like peaks on my monitor test sticks. I also tried a saliva microscope too and actually saw ferning on cd 48 and partial ferning on cd 47 so...any hope on an old egg. Probably not. Strangely too, my temp isn't really rising either. I know for sure I did O though. And we BD as should.
I was feeling so broken not Oing for 48 days, geepers! Now I am praying that was a fluke. I will be trying soy this next cycle.

I have really been thinking about adoption recently, specifically domestic adoption and have obtained lots of info from local adoption agencies and boy even that is discouraging. $35,000 to over $40,000 to adopt and a few state you need to be married at least 24 mos before submitting an app. or that you attend church regularly and that you get a written letter from the church stating that or taht you are in good physical condition with an average life expectancy (I get this, but am worried about what they'll think of me having diabetes). Also on the PE form it asks for BMI, okay, why do they need that? Another agency states that you have to be medically infertile. I just am amazed that there are so many stipulations.

I have this feeling I will be onto IUI and/or injects at an infertility clinic in the near future, but if IVF is needed I can't do it because my BMI is higher then they recommend it being.

I just feel like it is all stacked up against me...what is it that I can do?...nothing. I feel lost and helpless.

I just keep praying each and every day that we create a miracle!

God Bless us !