Baby name ideas (always have loved thinking about names)

http://www.babynames.com/namelist/9580701

Peak reading on FM

I am happy because this morning I got a peak reading on my fm. I am on cd 17 so that means that the Clomid has helped me ovulate about 14 days earlier then I have been. I told Josh to be ready for the cont.. bding ;O)
Now I am hoping that my cd 21 prog. blood draw shows a much needed increase.
Praying hard!

First round of Clomid

Okay, I finished taking my first round of Clomid (took cd 5- cd 9). Can say that I have yet to have any s/e from it. When taking it I may have had 2 or 3 very quick and mild hot flashes. I may at times be a little more moody, but DH has said that he doesn't notice any changes. I for the most part felt really good, almost relaxed the 5 days that I took it.
I am currently on cd 16 and fm is reading high, temps still low, not much to report. Just waiting to ovulate. We have been with either bding everyday or every other day since cd 5...don't want to miss any days as I am not sure when I will ovulate this cycle.
I spoke to the nurse this am and she said that my cd 3 and cd 10 blood work showed that I was responding to the Clomid. I am due to get cd 21 blood work done on 1-1-08. I really hope that I ovulate soon. Today is 7 days since last Clomid and I have read it typically is around 7-9 days after you take the last Clomid, but I have also read of women still ovulating late. Oh, I pray I ovulate any day now and that my prog blood draw is a positive number and that the Clomid either did the trick or is helping. We are praying so hard XOXOXO!!
I found out this past wknd (when we went to VT to celebrate Christmas with DH family) that his sister had 2 miscarriages after her daughter was born very early and passed away. They tried for 2 years to have their youngest son. I also just found out one of my friends is pregnant (due in June) and that she went through 1 year of fertility treatments. Guess you never know just how many women need intervention.
On another note, Christmas was awesome! I got a chance to share a lot with DH family and bond more with them. His Mom made a point to say she thinks all got closer (or something like that) this past visit. I talked and talked, all about my Diabetes and to his sister and sister in-law about ttc. We had a nice visit there and a great Christmas Eve and Christmas Day too :O) I love every minute with my hubby.
I can't even imagine us having a little one to share all our family time and holidays with, it will be amazing! I am so ready for that.
Please wish us luck this cycle.

Audrey passed away Saturday 12-8-07

Audrey, a life long friend to my Aunt Anne and honorary Aunt to my sister and I passed away this past weekend. I have so many memories from my childhood that all include her. She was such a big part of our family, maybe not through blood, but through our hearts. Audrey (like her Mother and my paternal Grandmother) suffered with Alzheimer's disease. When she was diagnosed, she was aware that she had it and took meds to slow it's progression down. She eventually got worse and my Aunt (they were roommates for 45 years, neither ever got married) had to place her in a nursing facility. Last time I saw her was over 2.5 years ago, right after Cindy and Fred's wedding. She didn't know us and at times called Aunt Anne "Mom". It is such a sad disease. Anyway, she was found sitting on the floor in another patient's room, they think she had fallen. She was suffering some paralysis on one side of her body, she was found to have a bleed in her brain. My Aunt and Audrey's niece had to decide whether to do surgery (on her already sick brain) to re- leave the bleed or let her be and slowly over the next days or weeks she'd pass away. They decided to try and help her. After her first surgery she needed another more involved surgery. Basically she never regained consciousness after this surgery and my Aunt stayed by her side through the days she had left.
We have missed being with her these past few years, but now with her passing it makes it all so final and so sad.

Audrey was a great person! She will be missed. We love you, Audrey!

I pray my Aunt can muster the strength to move along in time, it was so hard for her and all of us to loose my Grandmother to this awful disease and now her best friend. I pray for her!

On Saturday we all got together for our annual holiday baking and made a bunch of cookies, one of them, a tradition for us every year, Audrey's stained glass cookies. We always think of her when we make them and will every time we eat them as well.

God Bless!

Af has arrived

Okay, she shows up17 dpo. I'm telling you, there is no rhyme or reason to my cycles. Of course I am feeling the same way about my BS lately too. I have been having quite a few lows at least one per day, usually more. When I eat something that I think will spike me, it doesn't, but something else that I didn't think would, will. I have a hard time in the am too. My fasting should be 90-100 which it almost always is, sometimes in the 80's or lower. Well, I find I need to be low, like under 70 to then eat an almost no carb breakfast (eggs, protein like bacon, ham, sausage, cz or pb) and 1 slice wheat toast (12 carbs) w/ just butter. I'm psyched, I just found low carb 7 grain bread (8 carbs), anything helps. Although if I am running low in the evening, I need a snack before bed and my number at bedtime looks good, but is high in the am. I am struggling to try and figure it out.
I am so pleased with myself though, I have been using an online bs log since 11-14-07 and my 30 day avg. has been 108/ 109. That translates into an A1C of 5.2. Dr wants me at 6.5 or under (avg. 154) to conceive. My last A1C was 6.9 (avg. 168). Wow, I hope I can keep up the good work and actually get a good A1C reading in a few months.

Sorry, back to TTC. Af showed yest. and I spoke with the Dr. yest. too. The results from my preconception blood work were all good, all negative, not a cf carrier or anything like that. The results of my integrated progesterone were very, very low, 7 dpo was 1.0, 9 dpo was .9 and 11 dpo was .8 and this was all coming from a lp that was much longer then my typical 10 days. So the plan is to go for cd 3 blood work, start the Clomid on cd 5 (12-16-07) and cont. till cd 9, go for cd 10 blood work (cd 3 and cd 10 are looking at FSH and Estradiol levels) and finally on cd 21 go for a progesterone level. The hope is that the Clomid will increase my progesterone, if it doesn't increase it enough I believe she will then add on a prog. supplement.
Oh Lord, please let this be the month for us. Let this me the boost we need. Please! At the end of this cycle it will have been 1 year that we have been trying. I always had this feeling inside that I'd have a hard time, I don't know why, it was just a feeling, but I never could have imagined how emotionally and physically trying it has been. I feel I can muster the patience to wait if I know that in the end we will have success. It is the fear of will this ever happen, what if it doesn't that really scares me. I am praying we can figure it all out. The Dr mentioned too yest. that we are blaming me here and that we may also need to look at DH and have him get a semen analysis done in the near future and also I may need to consider doing an HSG to check my tubes, etc...
That is it for now as far as ttc.
Praying with all my might that I see some progress this month.

15 dpo and another BFN, but no AF either

Still in the 2 ww, grrr!

Okay, a BFN yest and again today. AF just show already so we can get started on the Clomid... come on!
Today is 12 dpo, one of the longest LP I have had. My temps are still up above the coverline. BBT dip on 6 dpo and 10 dpo, rised up quite a bit 9 dpo and 11 dpo, this am came down to what I have been averaging since ovulation.
I have had a really achy lower back starting last Sat. and has cont. all week. Past 2 days don't feel like eating anything, really grumpy last night, crampy/ achy abdomen all wk and esp today, felt nauseous when hungry earlier in wk, been tired; but then sleeping restlessly at night, have had to pee a little more often, bb have been a little tender, cm has been abundant (fertile like), cp is strange too; still high, medium and open with opening like tilted up and back some - weird, but BFNs so I don't get it. I really just want to start a new cycle already.
I am heading to the lab shortly for my last prog. blood draw. Still praying all my precon. tests come out okay.
Thats about it for now, just needed a quick vent. Will update later when something changes :O)

My Birthday (11-23)

Forgot to mention that I had an awesome birthday on Friday and party on Saturday. Josh had Fri. (black Friday) off so we headed out shopping early and got lots of good things for him at ACE. I had started and did the majority of my shopping before Thanksgiving this year so there was nothing I really needed to get. We had fun, stopped for lunch at my Mom and Dad's house for Thanksgiving Day leftovers and then I went with Josh to pick up my B-day cake (got it at Coldstone and it was sooo good... called a cheesecake named desire). We went out to Chunkys that night for dinner and a movie. Josh threw me a party on Sat. everyone in my family brought something and we had a spaghetti dinner, it was so much fun...I had the best time. Fred made some Jiffy pop at night (we were all hanging out in our pjs, lol!)Mom, Dad and Gramma stayed over that night and Josh and I made everyone a big breakfast Sunday morning. Then we all hung out, Dad and Josh were doing some work tog. outside. We ate leftover spag. for lunch and they left around 3 pm. Josh gave me tickets to Stomp at the Lowell Mem. Aud. for Nov. 28th. It was a great show. We both really enjoyed it. We went out to dinner to the Glenview (with some of my B-day money) before the show.
I am so lucky to have such a wonderful family. I feel so very blessed!
Our Thanksgiving was wonderful as well. Hope everyone had a great one :O)

Integrated ser. prog this week

This past Monday I went to the lab at the medical center at SNHRMC and had my preconception blood work and 1st progesterone done. I am going today for my 2nd prog blood draw and once again on Friday for the 3rd draw. They add up all the numbers and if under 30 (I believe) then it is low and would needs supplements. I think mine is low. I am praying that all my precon. labs come back fine and normal.
I got the results of my pap and cultures last week. My cultures were normal, but pap showed low grade changes so I need to have further investigation of that with a colposcopy. The Dr said that these changes wouldn't cause any problems with getting pregnant or being pregnant and that I can have the colposcopy even if I am pregnant. I really, really pray that all turns out well with this test. I am such a worrier anyway that I hate to add new stuff to the mix. I am bummed to think that I may have caused a problem for myself, but the past is the past and you can't change it. I try and tell myself that I can't change things and need to accept them and me the way I am. I am doing pretty well with that.
My pelvic u/s was done last Monday and that went well. Everything looked good, good thickness to the lining, good size/ shape to the uterus and ovaries, etc... I had 2 follicles in the L ovary that due to their size showed I had just ovulated. Fertility friend puts my ovulation date on Sunday the 25th. So I am 10 dpo today. I am not even holding out much for anything this cycle. Just been waiting to get through it to start a new cycle and start on the Clomid. I am very excited about this and really am hoping that this little help is all that we need. The negative side of me says yeah right, you think this little med will do the trick, but I am holding on to hope here and praying real hard as well.
As of today I am feeling pretty good. I have been tired the past few days, sleeping all through the night where as I usually need to go to the bathroom during the night. My lower back has been achy all week, have heartburn, lots of fertile cm, breasts tenderness and I have been feeling nauseous when I get hungry... probably just from my meds, that happens some times. I refuse to even think of them as symptoms of pg anymore. I seem to get what appears to be pg symptoms every cycle after ovulation. My BBT rose yest., but went back down quite a bit today so I am expecting that AF will be on her way soon.
Take care, till later :O)