1 mos waiting today

We are at the one month mark and still waiting patiently for something :o)

3 weeks waiting today

I feel good. Went to a yard sale yest. and bought a Kelty Kids (really cool) back pack carrier, door way jumper and a few small toys.
I am feeling relaxed the past few days, not wondering when or thinking too much, not worrying...just praying.
God Bless!

2 weeks waiting so far

Who knows how many more there will be. I do wonder???

Haven't done much lately in terms of preparing mostly because almost everything I can do is done, lol!

I do need to put the scented drawer liner in the drawers soon.

Feelings:

I am feeling good, still optimistic. Sometimes I forget we are waiting for "that call", but most of the time I wait and wonder when it will happen. I try and just take each day at a time. I try and tell myself it could take a year or more, but when I start thinking about all that time waiting, it makes me feel awful. I keep praying that our time is sooner rather then later. I take this time planning things in my head, thinking about what we'll do with different situations, each time I go to a store I visit the baby section just to see what they have.
Mom wants to use a coupon I have for $4 of Pampers this week so I think we'll be going to Babies R Us one day this week and she'll be buying us a big box (haven't bought one of these yet) of Pampers size 1's.

Not much more going on.

Would've been due

September 19th or 20th was the due date for our little peanut. I can't believe that all these months have gone by and we weren't able to conceive again.
Honestly there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of our loss...my heart hurts for all who have or will ever experience a m/c.
When I think about all the things I missed out on not being pregnant, it really saddens me, especially when I hear my friends complain (and If I was pg I'm sure I'd complain too so I know they mean nothing by it).
I thank the Lord for helping us come to the decision of adoption and leading us down a new path to parenthood. I really don't know where I would be emotionally if we weren't looking forward to the blessing of a child in our future.

Through the heartbreak of our m/c I worked on our nursery continuing to believe one day we will need it. This has gotten me so far mentally and I am so thankful for that. Our sw was impressed to see the nursery ready (or pretty close to it) on Monday when she did our home visit. I am a planner and love being organized and on top of things so I definitely want to be prepared for any surprise calls.

I just wanted to mark this day in some way. It was supposed to be a very happy time for us and instead we remember our little angel who is with God in heaven.

checking out a sig

Songs and poems

"I prayed for this child, and the Lord has granted me what I asked of him"
1 Samuel 1:27

I cross my heart: George Strait

From God's Arms to My Arms to Yours: Michael McLean

Arms Wide Open: Creed

A New Day Has Come: Celine Dion

When Love Takes You In: Steven Curtis Chapman

Sweet Baby: Michelle Featherstone

They Chose Me: Faith :Refined

Handprints On The Wall: Kenny Rogers

Amazing: Janelle

Somewhere Over The Rainbow

Poem:
We witness a miracle every time a child enters into life.
But those who make their journey home across time and miles, growing within the hearts of those who wait to love them, are carried on the wings of destiny and placed among us by God's very own hands.
-Kristi Larson

Our children are not ours because they share our genes...they are ours because we have had the audacity to envision them. That, at the end of the day...or long sleepless night, is how love really works.
-author unkown

Longing for a child to love, I'd wish upon the stars above. In my heart I always knew, a part of me belonged to you.

The day you took my outstretched hand, a journey ended, but our lives began. Still mesmerized by your sweet face, still warmed inside by our first embrace.

Great adoption blinkies

And my all time fave blinkie: