Would've been due

September 19th or 20th was the due date for our little peanut. I can't believe that all these months have gone by and we weren't able to conceive again.
Honestly there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of our loss...my heart hurts for all who have or will ever experience a m/c.
When I think about all the things I missed out on not being pregnant, it really saddens me, especially when I hear my friends complain (and If I was pg I'm sure I'd complain too so I know they mean nothing by it).
I thank the Lord for helping us come to the decision of adoption and leading us down a new path to parenthood. I really don't know where I would be emotionally if we weren't looking forward to the blessing of a child in our future.

Through the heartbreak of our m/c I worked on our nursery continuing to believe one day we will need it. This has gotten me so far mentally and I am so thankful for that. Our sw was impressed to see the nursery ready (or pretty close to it) on Monday when she did our home visit. I am a planner and love being organized and on top of things so I definitely want to be prepared for any surprise calls.

I just wanted to mark this day in some way. It was supposed to be a very happy time for us and instead we remember our little angel who is with God in heaven.