Spoke with J again

I called her tonight to say hi and see how she's doing. She was just relaxing and watching tv. She said she's doing well. She told me about her appt. on Monday and that now she needs to go back on Thurs. for a recheck as she had to make something up for them to see her on Mon. I told her I'd check in with her again over the weekend.

Also,
I spoke with our SW today and she said that 3/4 of all the adoptions they do are the same situation as this Bfather and that we shouldn't worry too much because she can't really remember any coming forward...of course we are worried, but this has helped to hear.

Baby's due date

Got an email from our facilitator that said J was seen by a DR yest. and that the baby is healthy (not sure what tests or procedures were done), she heard the heartbeat and her due date is 12-22! She has another DRs appt. on Thursday afternoon.

Update:
I called to speak with J tonight and she was out so instead her Mom and I had a nice chat. She told me that J had an U/S yest. and all looked good with the baby...thank you God! She seems very supportive of the adoption, actually very for it. She knows it would be the best thing for this child. I told her to tell J I called and I would try her again tomorrow.

Name list

Josh and I sat down last night to work on a list of names to share with the Bmom (I'd like to refer to her as J from now on). We still both really love Aleigha for a girl and Joel for a boy, we were unable to come up with any other boy names we liked. So we are hoping she likes Joel.
For girls we like: Haylee
Josie
Makinlee
Terasa (Tess or Tessa)
Alexis
Keara/Keira
Rylee
None of them as much as Aleigha, but they are the best of all the ones we read in the baby name book.
Hopefully she'll like our favorite girl/boy names.

Wonder....................

I sit up these past few nights finding it hard to put my mind to rest. I wonder about you, about your future. Will we be your Mommy and Daddy?????

The fear in my heart that we just don't know the answer to this is so strong. I feel you out there, I feel I've known about you for a while now, yet we know nothing about you.
We pray first and foremost for your health and for your birth mom's strength and courage and for a smooth transition for all of us as we wait, wonder and worry about your birth fathers rights for what will seem like an eternity I am sure.

It is so, so very hard just not knowing what will ultimately happen.
I have become attached to this little one who is not yet here and who we have just came to find out about a mere week ago today.
We want you little one soooooo very much!
As the days go on I feel more worried I can't imagine things changing and us coming home without you or this situation not continuing at all.
Okay that's it, I need to and will stop worrying about this. What's going to happen is going to happen it is in God's hands and there is no changing what's to come, we need to accept whatever comes with this situation, but for now...We are CHOSEN and we wait excitedly for news each and every day.
I pray for you with all that I am that you are born healthy and strong and you are our baby!

God hear this prayer!

Surreal

This all feels so surreal. I look in the nursery and see the baby stuff packed. I got the car seat ready to grab and I can't help but feel like why am I doing this...oh, ya.
I guess this all comes from waiting and wanting this for so long.
I am sharing our news with all our friends both online and in real life and we are getting lots of kind words, thoughts, support and prayers and I just can't pray enough that we are not ALL let down in the end.
Everyone keeps saying you guys will be having the best Christmas ever and yes, we could or...we don't even want to think about the or.
Every time I think about the outcome that will make US happy I think about what the Bmom is going through...I can't imagine. I just believe that she knows that this decision is for the best.
I am truly terrified, we have so much waiting to do after baby comes before we know if he/she is ours. We wait 72 hours before bmom can sign and then 4 weeks (I think) for bdad to come round and sign or for his rights to be legally terminated. I am so scared to get in too deep emotionally, who am I kidding, we already are.
God please protect our hearts. You know how badly we want this and how much we are praying for this child.
This all feels so completely surreal!

Spoke with Bmom

I called and spoke with the Bmom yest. after I got out of work (about 5:30 our time) we spoke for about 20 mins or so. I feel it went really well...I hope she did too. She is hoping to get seen in the ER on Monday and I asked her if she'd like me to give her a call afterward to see how she is doing. She said I could give her a call on Tuesday. We hope she is able to be seen and we all can get some relief that all looks well.
While talking with her I could only imagine what she is going through. I told her how much respect I have for her and what she is going through. She sounded very shy and sweet. She asked if we'd be flying out to her state when the baby comes and if we'd send her pictures and letters letting her know how he or she is doing in the future, in school, etc...
I asked her if she had thought of any names or if she wanted us to come up with some. She thought we could all come up with some and talk about them.
I really hope our future conversations go well and we can become closer.
Funny thing is I swear she said she was due at the beg. of December, hmmm!

Josh and I have lots to do to get everything in order for Christmas. I hope to have all our gifts purchased and wrapped and everything else all set before we have to leave.

Josh is really feeling happiness and excitement. We toasted with Champagne last night to the hopes of a good future ahead. Please cont. to pray with us that everything cont. along this journey well. It is so hard just not knowing....

I told some of my friends at work yest. (Karen, Laura, Marilyn). They were very happy for us...Laura gave me a hug and was all teary.

This baby would mean the world to us. We pray with all we've got that this baby is healthy and becomes ours.

God Bless!

Spoke with our adoption agency

And they told us that the Bmom is very excited. She feels bonded to Josh and I through our profile. She didn't want to look at any others and wants us to be the family for her baby. WOW!
She is due around Christmas so I am giving her a due date of 12-15-08...he~he! So that makes her 35 weeks.
I really just can't believe this is happening for us so soon. I will never forget the feeling of peace I had Monday after consignment shopping. I felt so calm and relaxed about the process and probably a long wait. I returned home to a message from our facilitator. She wanted to know if we wanted to be considered for a Bmom's baby. I thought that meant she'd present us to the Bmom, but now I realize that meant that the Bmom had chosen us already. When we were first presented with the decision we had to do some considering, mostly now I think it was just because it was all so sudden. Now that a few days have passed and it has all begun to sink in it feels right. Esp. after hearing of how the Bmom is feeling about us...makes us feel very lucky. We pray that everything continues along smoothly...what are the chances of that?!
Josh spoke with his employer and they are aware that he may be needing a few weeks off around Christmas and told him they want to know what gender the baby is so they can get he or she a gift.
It scares me that things feel like they are right and both Josh and I are so happy and cautiously excited.
We haven't yet received the email from the facilitator with the Bmom's info or her phone # so we haven't spoken yet...I am so nervous!
I wonder what it was about us that she liked so much. We still haven't had a chance to talk on the phone yet. When we do, maybe I will ask her.