This all feels so surreal. I look in the nursery and see the baby stuff packed. I got the car seat ready to grab and I can't help but feel like why am I doing this...oh, ya.
I guess this all comes from waiting and wanting this for so long.
I am sharing our news with all our friends both online and in real life and we are getting lots of kind words, thoughts, support and prayers and I just can't pray enough that we are not ALL let down in the end.
Everyone keeps saying you guys will be having the best Christmas ever and yes, we could or...we don't even want to think about the or.
Every time I think about the outcome that will make US happy I think about what the Bmom is going through...I can't imagine. I just believe that she knows that this decision is for the best.
I am truly terrified, we have so much waiting to do after baby comes before we know if he/she is ours. We wait 72 hours before bmom can sign and then 4 weeks (I think) for bdad to come round and sign or for his rights to be legally terminated. I am so scared to get in too deep emotionally, who am I kidding, we already are.
God please protect our hearts. You know how badly we want this and how much we are praying for this child.
This all feels so completely surreal!
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Joel~18 months old
Swimming to Mommy in the pool
17 months old at his Aunt JoJo's wedding
Becoming best buds, Joel and Wrigley (1-28-10)
Make your Stick Figure Family at FreeFlashToys.com
Riding in a Britax Boulevard (Riviera) in Mommy's car. Was riding in a Graco SafeSeat (Kendall) until 8-12-09, in a Britax Roundabout 50 (Cowmooflage) in Daddy's car, a Britax Marathon (Cowmooflage) in Grammy & Grampy's van, a Marathon (Platinum) in Grammy's car & an Evenflo Triumph Advance Deluxe for a spare (Auntie C's car?)
Welcome to our ttc, infertility, waiting to adopt and now baby's here blog
We couldn't have begun to imagine what this journey would be like. With years behind us...wonder goes through our minds everyday.
We both can't wait to have children...I want to be a Mommy, he a Daddy.
Life would be so much easier to know when, where, how, why, but these things we aren't always able to know.
I pray to GOD above and know that when it is time, he will help us to create our miracle.
Thanks for reading our blog and following our journey, though we both hope it is not that long of a journey after all. Please help us pray that we receive our miracle, our blessing.
Thank you,
Jill & Josh
Always remembering (Peanut) our Angel Baby who grew wings on 1-22-08.
From TTC to Domestic Infant Adoption...Follow us down the path...
7-14-08 Application mailed to agency ~
7-15-08 Application received by agency & got call from SW ~
7-17-08 spoke to SW & scheduled our 1st (of 5) homestudies (HS)
7-22-08 1st couple HS ~
7-28-08 Adoptive Parent classes begin (held monthly) ~
We both right up our biographies for our individual HS
7-31-08 Josh's HS ~
8-4-08 Jill's HS ~
Completed CORI checks, sex offender registry check, fingerprints done ~
8-11-08 received facilitator paperwork ~ Worked diligently on our profile book & finally completed (many hours & copies later)
8-25-08 our 2nd couple HS, approved for 50% reduction in some of the agencies adoption fees ~ 9-3-08 Jill's PE & TB test ~
9-3-08 Mailed completed packet including profiles/cd to Facilitator ~
9-4-08 Josh's PE & TB test ~
9-8-08 Facilitator received packet ~
9-12-08 Both got our blood work done ~
9-15-08 we have our Home Visit with SW & got verbal approval. Later that afternoon our profile was posted on Facilitators site as waiting family ~ We begin waiting ~
9-17-08 registered at Babies R Us ~
10-13-08 One month waiting ~ Spoke to Facilitator, things have been slow ~
10-22-08 received our official approval letter in the mail ~
11-10-08 Two months waiting & received a message from facilitator of a possible situation, we decide to move forward...
~11-12-08 Facilitator tells us we have been officially chosen :o) Baby due 12-22-08
11-13-08 and onward, many phone calls with our SW 11-15-08 1st phone call to J (Birth Mother), called J a few times per week after that to see how she was doing ~
11-18-08 spoke with J's mother on phone for 1st time 11-29-08 Josh 1st spoke to J ~
12-8-08 Mailed J care package (gown, etc... for hospital) ~
12-10-08 called to see how J was, she was upset, she said she changed her mind & was going to keep the baby...we are devastated. Later that night J calls us back & apologizes, says she is going through with the adoption ~
12-11-08 J called to thank us for the care package ~ 12-27-08 J called us at 8 am (MA time) she was heading to the hospital, she thinks she's in labor. J's Mother calls us around 9:30/10 am, she will be induced ~ We schedule our flight to NV (earliest 7 pm from Boston). We visit my Grammy in rehab & got to Panera for lunch. I check my phone and have around 6 messages. One is our SW saying it'll be another 5 hours or so before baby is born. One of the next ones was our SW again saying "it's a boy". Then one from J's Mom. I call J to see how she is & ask her if she still wants us to come? We tell her we'll be on our way! We go home & order her flowers, take out any girl stuff from the babies luggage & add more boy stuff.
Our son was born on 12-27-08 at 9:40 am (NV time) at 6 pounds, 3 oz, 19 1/4 long & healthy ~ We arrive in NV at midnight. Call J & her Mother to let them know we are there ~
12-28-08 We get a call from J's Mom at 5 am that the baby (named Bryan by J) was transfered to another local hospital with a level 3 NICU, he was having heart problems. We later found out he has a partial heart block, was being monitored & doing well, he didn't have any abnormalities of the heart itself ~
12-28-08 We meet J & her Mom at 10 am at the hospital. She's discharged & we all go see the baby in the NICU.
We fall in love with our little man!
Over the next few day we visit with him morning, noon & night. We buy him a NICU outfit & little stuffed Golden Retriever ~
12-30-08 J signed TPR ~ We room in with Joel that night ~
12-31-08 Joel is D/C from NICU & with us in the hotel on New Years Eve ~
1-5-09 Joel has follow up Pedi appt. he is doing well, his heart sounds great, had a normal EKG ~
1-5-09 Grammy passes away :o(~
1-7-09 Joel sees his Cardiologist, again normal EKG & ECHO, we are told he has most likely outgrown his heart block, but keep him monitored, strong boy! ~
We remain in NV till 1-8-09 (ICPC is all set)~ while in NV we visited J, her Mom & Joel's older sister ~
1-9-09 It's great to be home! ~
Delay in TPR of BFather ~ He shows at agency a few days shy of Joel turning 6 months & says he wants custody. He is served to appear in court on 7-15-09...we are terrified to loose our boy ~
7-15-09 Birth Father's rights were legally terminated (he didn't show) ~
8-19-09 Hearing for TPR of Legal Father (Birth Mother's now ex-husband)
End of 9/09 Our SW receives all necessary legal paperwork and we retain our attorney for finalization (mailed retainer on 10/8/09)
Now we await finalization in our state (paperwork mailed to attorney on 10-26-09) ~ 11-16-09 attorney calls with date for finalization, set for morning of December 9, 2009
~ 12-9-09 We went to court and Joel's adoption is final...YAY!
We both can't wait to have children...I want to be a Mommy, he a Daddy.
Life would be so much easier to know when, where, how, why, but these things we aren't always able to know.
I pray to GOD above and know that when it is time, he will help us to create our miracle.
Thanks for reading our blog and following our journey, though we both hope it is not that long of a journey after all. Please help us pray that we receive our miracle, our blessing.
Thank you,
Jill & Josh
Always remembering (Peanut) our Angel Baby who grew wings on 1-22-08.
From TTC to Domestic Infant Adoption...Follow us down the path...
7-14-08 Application mailed to agency ~
7-15-08 Application received by agency & got call from SW ~
7-17-08 spoke to SW & scheduled our 1st (of 5) homestudies (HS)
7-22-08 1st couple HS ~
7-28-08 Adoptive Parent classes begin (held monthly) ~
We both right up our biographies for our individual HS
7-31-08 Josh's HS ~
8-4-08 Jill's HS ~
Completed CORI checks, sex offender registry check, fingerprints done ~
8-11-08 received facilitator paperwork ~ Worked diligently on our profile book & finally completed (many hours & copies later)
8-25-08 our 2nd couple HS, approved for 50% reduction in some of the agencies adoption fees ~ 9-3-08 Jill's PE & TB test ~
9-3-08 Mailed completed packet including profiles/cd to Facilitator ~
9-4-08 Josh's PE & TB test ~
9-8-08 Facilitator received packet ~
9-12-08 Both got our blood work done ~
9-15-08 we have our Home Visit with SW & got verbal approval. Later that afternoon our profile was posted on Facilitators site as waiting family ~ We begin waiting ~
9-17-08 registered at Babies R Us ~
10-13-08 One month waiting ~ Spoke to Facilitator, things have been slow ~
10-22-08 received our official approval letter in the mail ~
11-10-08 Two months waiting & received a message from facilitator of a possible situation, we decide to move forward...
~11-12-08 Facilitator tells us we have been officially chosen :o) Baby due 12-22-08
11-13-08 and onward, many phone calls with our SW 11-15-08 1st phone call to J (Birth Mother), called J a few times per week after that to see how she was doing ~
11-18-08 spoke with J's mother on phone for 1st time 11-29-08 Josh 1st spoke to J ~
12-8-08 Mailed J care package (gown, etc... for hospital) ~
12-10-08 called to see how J was, she was upset, she said she changed her mind & was going to keep the baby...we are devastated. Later that night J calls us back & apologizes, says she is going through with the adoption ~
12-11-08 J called to thank us for the care package ~ 12-27-08 J called us at 8 am (MA time) she was heading to the hospital, she thinks she's in labor. J's Mother calls us around 9:30/10 am, she will be induced ~ We schedule our flight to NV (earliest 7 pm from Boston). We visit my Grammy in rehab & got to Panera for lunch. I check my phone and have around 6 messages. One is our SW saying it'll be another 5 hours or so before baby is born. One of the next ones was our SW again saying "it's a boy". Then one from J's Mom. I call J to see how she is & ask her if she still wants us to come? We tell her we'll be on our way! We go home & order her flowers, take out any girl stuff from the babies luggage & add more boy stuff.
Our son was born on 12-27-08 at 9:40 am (NV time) at 6 pounds, 3 oz, 19 1/4 long & healthy ~ We arrive in NV at midnight. Call J & her Mother to let them know we are there ~
12-28-08 We get a call from J's Mom at 5 am that the baby (named Bryan by J) was transfered to another local hospital with a level 3 NICU, he was having heart problems. We later found out he has a partial heart block, was being monitored & doing well, he didn't have any abnormalities of the heart itself ~
12-28-08 We meet J & her Mom at 10 am at the hospital. She's discharged & we all go see the baby in the NICU.
We fall in love with our little man!
Over the next few day we visit with him morning, noon & night. We buy him a NICU outfit & little stuffed Golden Retriever ~
12-30-08 J signed TPR ~ We room in with Joel that night ~
12-31-08 Joel is D/C from NICU & with us in the hotel on New Years Eve ~
1-5-09 Joel has follow up Pedi appt. he is doing well, his heart sounds great, had a normal EKG ~
1-5-09 Grammy passes away :o(~
1-7-09 Joel sees his Cardiologist, again normal EKG & ECHO, we are told he has most likely outgrown his heart block, but keep him monitored, strong boy! ~
We remain in NV till 1-8-09 (ICPC is all set)~ while in NV we visited J, her Mom & Joel's older sister ~
1-9-09 It's great to be home! ~
Delay in TPR of BFather ~ He shows at agency a few days shy of Joel turning 6 months & says he wants custody. He is served to appear in court on 7-15-09...we are terrified to loose our boy ~
7-15-09 Birth Father's rights were legally terminated (he didn't show) ~
8-19-09 Hearing for TPR of Legal Father (Birth Mother's now ex-husband)
End of 9/09 Our SW receives all necessary legal paperwork and we retain our attorney for finalization (mailed retainer on 10/8/09)
Now we await finalization in our state (paperwork mailed to attorney on 10-26-09) ~ 11-16-09 attorney calls with date for finalization, set for morning of December 9, 2009
~ 12-9-09 We went to court and Joel's adoption is final...YAY!
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